Saturday, November 3, 2012

My Heart Is Broken....

Yesterday I took Louie to the vet again. I had mentioned before how he had been loosing all this weight. Well he started gaining a little back, but than all of the sudden he got this huge balloon like tummy. I went to the vet dreading what I was going to be told, they told me just want I was dreading they think it is FIP (Feline Infectious Peritonitis) my heart is completely broken. FIP is pretty much always fatal, there is no know cure. Louie does not seem to be in any pain yet, so I have taken home he is on antibiotics and steroids, I am trying to give him as happy to an end of a life as I can & show him how loved he is, but I am so sad I feel like crying all the time. 

How could I have the best day & the worst day all in the same week.


Louie sleeping this morning with his Biologic siblings Lulu & Levi.
FIP is also a contagious disease between cats. The vet said since Louie has been sick for so long my other cats have all already surely been exposed to it, so it wont really do anything to separate him now. Most cats can be exposed & be totally fine, it is a low percentage of cats who get this virus. But I can not help but constantly worry the others will end up getting it also, since it can take some time to show any symptoms.  I also don't want to separate Louie and make him feel all alone.

 Levi, Louie, & Lulu.

Lacie pulled this blanket off the couch this afternoon as if she was trying to make a comfy spot for Louie, then she laid by him, it's like she knows. They have been laying there together for almost an hour. I love Louie so much. I don't know how we are going to get through this, not only me & my boyfriend, I know the rest of the animals will all be so sad as well, they all love each other so much. Louie is so young it is just so unfair, he is not even 6 months old yet until Monday.


Sorry for such a depressing post.....

12 comments:

  1. I am so, so, sorry!!! I know exactly what you are going through now. My cat, Sandy, was in a similar situation, and it tore me apart. I didn't want to lose her, and yet I knew she was getting worse. And some part of me just wished it would be over quickly because the whole situation just ate at me. Only, in her case, she was a 20 year old cat. And your poor thing, isn't even 6 months old!

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  2. My heart also breaks for you. There is just something so sad about an animal being sick. I can only imagine the turmoil you must be in.

    Maybe you will get a Christmas Miracle and he will be just fine. (That happens sometimes)

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  3. Janae,I'm so sorry,but miracles do happen and You never know,Love is such a healer. I think animals can sense other animals and human suffering. I will pray for you and your baby. xx

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  4. My heart just goes out to you and your family of animals! It is so sad to know you are losing a pet, especially when the pet is so young. I hope you know you are giving him the best life he could ever hope for. I am praying for a miracle for you and Louie!!

    ~Shanon

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  5. So sorry. This is so very sad!

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  6. I'm sorry this is happening to such adorable little kitten! Very sad indeed. Big hugs.
    FABBY

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  7. Janae--My heart breaks at the thought of losing Louie too. It breaks just as much to see you going through this pain and me being not able to do anything about it.

    I hope that if it is time for Louie to leave us physically you will remember the good times with Louie. I remember him chugging down a bottle within seconds and then climbing my leg for more. All the purring and cuddling and how he was twice the size of his siblings. Whenever people came over everyone always thought he was the cutest. Though he has only lived 6 months he has lived a really good six months.

    I believe no matter what happens his spirit and energy will remain in your house. I love you.

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  8. I get it, how sad and then to have to sorry about the other cats too!!! Keep os posted!

    Carol

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  9. Janae, I'm so sorry about little Louie. Such a pretty and sweet little guy. It's so hard to lose a pet. They are such s part of all our families. All you can do is love him and if he does have to go, he will know he was loved..Take care,Judy

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  10. I'm so sorry, Janae'. You express yourself well, and I feel your pain. Like your Mother, I wish I could do something to help. YOu have given little Louie so much love and excellent care. Even if his life is not extended, Louie knows more love than most and will always live in your heart. Please receive comfort with that knowledge.

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  11. Oh Janae, I am so sorry. I feel your sadness. I have been through something so similar with my little kitten Sadie. I only had her 2 weeks. She had something that kittens get when they are at a pet store. I can't remember the name of it but she bloated up and had lots of diarrhea. I think she became dehydrated. I was hearbroken but I tried to take comfort in that in her short life she was so loved. I am thinking of you. ~Hugs, Patti

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  12. i feel for you. i dread the day when mine goes naturaly. im so sorry for your baby. at least hes got his "family" with him, and lots of loving. all you can do is take as much care, time that you can. wish you the best. hope your other babies fair well. susy

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