Tuesday, November 20, 2012

R.I.P Louie I'll love you forever

 

 As alot of you already know my sweet Louie had FIP (feline infectious peritonitis)
FIP is horrible disease in which these is no cure for.
Tonight this horrid disease took my sweet babies life.

Louie was doing well for a while, he has been showing some signs of the disease for several months. He always had been eating well and getting around well he just slept alot and had the big bloated tummy that fip cats have. Then all of the sudden everything went down hill really really fast. When I came home from work this afternoon, Louie was fine he greeted me at the door as usual. I was really tired so I went to take a nap. My boyfriend woke me, telling my Louie could not walk. I got right up to go see Louie, and he couldn't walk he was falling over almost seizure like. Within an hour or two he was alot worse he was just laying very still with eyes closed drooling and wetting himself. I knew what I had to do, I had to have him put to sleep, as much as I did not want to let go, I had to do what was best for Louie, I did not want him to suffer. My Mother & Sister went with me for support we had to drive Louie to an emergency vet about an hour away since it was after hours for our regular vet. I did not want him to suffer all night it could not wait until morning.I also paid extra so I will get Louie's ashes back.

The entire drive to the vet Louie kept his eyes closed. Then at the vet right before he was going to put down, I was kissing him telling him I loved him, he open his eyes picked his  head up a little, looked at me, and let out a little purr and then laid back down it was a very special moment.

I miss him so very much, my heart is broken. He was my baby.


This is me bottle feeding Louie when he was 4 close to 5 weeks old.
Louie's Mother was killed when he was only 2 weeks old. My Mother took Louie and his 4 litter mates in and bottle feed them every 2 hours when they were newborns.

Louie's biological siblings Lulu & Levi pictured above were very worried about him, laying by Louie in his bed. I don't think they understand yet that he is gone, it is so sad.
This picture was taken tonight right before Louie started getting really ill.


Lulu, Louie & Levi at about 8 weeks old.


 
 My Boyfriend, Sidney has not been taking the loss very well either, he has been really upset all night. When I picked Louie up after Sidney had been saying goodbye to him he was drenched in Sidney's tears.

Louie & I sleeping together.
 
My Sweet baby Louie when he was 6 weeks old.

Louie was "Louie the Lion" for Halloween
He always loved treats! That's how I got this perfect roaring picture, he let out a big meow for food.

He even got "pet of the week" of Petsmart's Facebook page for his great roaring picture.

All the kittens from the litter, My parents kept the other two that I don't have, Phoebe & Fez.

10 weeks old

6 weeks old
 
 I'll never have a true "adult" picture of all of them. It will be to heart breaking to get the whole litter all together for group photo's now that Louie will always be "the ones that's missing".


My Persian Billie is 8 weeks older than the kittens, but honestly I think he things he one of the litter. I remember how excited he was when I brought the 3 kittens home, he had play mates!



Not only is this loss really hard on Sidney & I. But I know once the other animals figure it out they are all going to be very sad as well, they all love each other so very much. I took this picture this past Saturday morning of all of my babies asleep on me (my legs are under all of them)
 
I am so glad I have these great picture's of all of us with Louie in them. Taken just a few days ago
I will always treasure these photo's
 
Lacie looks huge next Louie & Levi when they were so tiny. Louie always loved this little basket bed so much. It was the bed he went to the ved in tonight. I have not been able to get it out of the car yet, it's so sad to bring it in empty.
 
 
Louie was such a sweet cat always so loving & cuddly, he was perfect.
 
I miss you so much Louie but I know you are in a better place now
 I'll love you forever
RIP Louie 5/5/12 to 11/19/12

28 comments:

  1. Janae--this is a beautiful post to remember Louie's life. Such a sweet boy he was and so hard to believe he is gone. He is still in our hearts that is for sure. I am honored I was able to be there at the end of his life...even though we didn't want it to happen he looked at you so sweetly and he died so peacefully that I feel it was not a bad experience for him. Even though he lived only a little over 6 months he experienced more love than most cats get in a long lifetime. Time will heal our grief and we will always remember him for the sweet boy he was. Even though his short life has caused us a lot of loss and pain I am still very glad we had him in our lives.

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  2. Dearest Janae'...I'm so sorry! You've made a really special post of Louie here, and as Sandy wrote: "he experienced more love than most cats get in a long lifetime." That is beautiful how he looked at you and purred just before he died. It is almost like he was trying to comfort you. I'm so glad Sandy & Chantel were able to be with you to take him to the vet. I could see in the photo that Sidney loved Louie too. Be comforted honey...you are much loved.

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  3. (((Janae))), I'm so very sorry to hear about Louie. I'm glad that you were able to be with him at the end and that the two of you experieced that very special moment. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

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  4. Janae, I'm reading this post with tears in my eyes, I'm sorry, I've been there. To love is to be faithful, not being selfish, you made ​​the right decision and only those who truly love, prefer to suffer than see another suffer.

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  5. Janae I am so sorry for the loss of your sweet and beloved Louie...my heart aches for the sadness you must be feeling. I know he will be with you again someday. That is what always gets me through the loss of one of my 4 legged babies. Louie, as well as all of your babies are so lucky to have your love. Sending you a big hug...Patti

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  6. oh god, the tears I have not been able to shed in a long time are falling now. I know too well the lost of a beloved cat, who looks at you with love in that moment you are ending their life. I could not stop crying, but her suffering was not an option any more. She knew I loved her. I'm so very sorry Janae. You are blessed with more furries to love there.

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  7. This has me crying as I type this! It is bringing all the sadness back from when we had to put my "baby" Jewel to sleep. She was a 9 year old German Shepherd, who still looked more like a 9 month old puppy. She was the runt of the litter, and I loved her and still love her so much it hurts. We have to do what is best for our "furry babies" but sometimes it hurts so bad it feels like it could tear our hearts out. I feel your pain.

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  8. Dear Janae! I cried as I read what you wrote. I'm just so sad for you and the pain you must be feeling. Louie was such a darling! Such a sweet,lovable little face! But, remember always that little Louie was blessed to be a part of your life and blessed because of all the love you gave him. At least, he is no longer suffering. He had a short life but a happy life because of you, Janae! Perhaps this could be a consolation for you, knowing that you gave him such a beautiful, secure, loving home!

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  9. I'm so sorry for your loss. You will always have wonderful memories of him. My heart goes out to you. Hugs Jennifer

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  10. Aww, I am so sorry!!!!! I feel really bad for you and your family.You can see how much you have all loved him !!!!! We have loved seeing your beautiful photos of your sweet kitty!!!!! In time you will heal ,blessings,Sara

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  11. So sorry to hear about your poor kitty. I hope with time you can feel peace that he is at least not in pain anymore and had a good life with you while he was alive. Hugs!

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  12. I'm so sorry, I always cry when I hear stories like this because I lived it twice. the heart breaks, but it sure is better now.
    lots of hugs

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  13. I am so sorry for your loss. Non pet lovers do not understand the bond between human and companion.

    I am so sorry there is nothing I can say or do to help fill the empty hole in your heart that is for Louie alone.

    Just know you are not alone and you are loved.

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  14. So hard to say goodbye to a pet. They love us unconditionaly and just work their way into our hearts. Always remember . . . Louie had the best home a kitty could ever have! He was loved by YOU! I am so sorry for your loss Janae. I will keep you in my prayers and thoughts.

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  15. Janae, I'm so so sorry to hear about beautiful little Louie. I know how much you adore all of your animals and it's heartbreaking when we have to let them go. Thinking of you tonight...xoxo

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  16. I am so sorry for your loss as I was reading it the tears fell down my face. You did the right thing its so sad when an animals leaves you. You are a great mummy to your little darlings. Keep your memories close your heart. God bless. Tracy x

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  17. I am so sad for you -- God bless both you and your mother for being such wonderful mothers to these furry creatures. I still miss my cat who died 3 years ago at age 21 from kidney disease. Your mother is a saint for bottle feeding all those kittens! You now have that much more love to give the babies you have --- "There's more room in a a broken heart".
    Mary

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  18. So sorry for your loss I am glad he brought u both so much joy while he was here.

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  19. I'm so sorry to hear of Louie's passing. I can see that he was well loved and treasured and lived a blessed life.
    Patti

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  20. I'm so sorry for your terrible loss Janae. I have been checking your blog regularly for updates about little Louie's health and I am very saddened to read this. My thoughts are with you.

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  21. Dear Janae,
    I'm so sorry to hear about your little Louie. I'm sure he knew how much you & your whole family loved and cared for him. God rest his precious little soul.
    Hugs, Joy

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  22. Dear Janae:

    I have read and reread your beautiful post about Louie. What a wonderful tribute to your little boy. I can truly feel your pain as I lost both my cat and my dog within a three week timeframe in July. While you only had him for a short while, he gave you alot of love and you gave him alot of love. Some people and pets don't feel a love like this in their entire life, let alone in the 6 short months that you had him. I wish I could take your pain away b/c I know how bad you are hurting. Just know that he is in a better place now and doesn't have to suffer. He will be waiting for you by the Rainbow Bridge when the time is right. You have such a beautiful blog and you are a true inspiration to all of us animal lovers out in blogland. Keep your chin up and remember the unconditional love that he was able to give you. Take care!!

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  23. I am so sorry to hear about Louie. It is so hard to lose a fur baby and to have him so sick is especially hard. Praying for you and all your babies....

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  24. So sad to hear but you gave him a wonderful life and lots of love which is the most important thing. Take care of yourself and hug those other babies close.

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  25. I am so sorry for your loss. We have had to put several beloved kitties to sleep over our 20 year marriage and I know how hard it is and how it just breaks your heart. You gave Louie the most blessed, loving life a kitty could have - always remember that. Your beautiful pictures of your furbabies bring my family and I a lot of joy - I will be thinking of you and praying for you.

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  26. So sorry for your loss, it's terrible losing a pet, especially when you have to make such hard decisions. You gave him an amazing life in the short time he was here though. I hope you're OK and glad you have your other fur babies to help you through. Hugs. x

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  27. I am so sorry, dear heart.

    My heart broke as I read this post, and I cried along with you. Said a prayer for you and the other babies, and am sending lots of good thoughts your way. I had to make a similar decision with my cat, Minnie, a few years ago, and it was definitely the most difficult time of my life.

    Time will start to make the pain less intense, and you will smile as you remember him and the special soul he was. Like you, I am glad you have all of these wonderful photos. What a sweet kitty!

    Love,
    Rebekah

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